4/10/2009 12:26 am
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4/10/2009 12:30 am
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happy birthday mom,in as dad has lied on me so badly already to everyone, i have not yet (& do not plan to) confornt him with the fact that he has led everyone to believe i was spending his money wrongfully, or that he was giving it to atarah and i, or spending it on "the bills" or things he needed ie: "a heater, because i was keeping it too cold in here"& SO ON & SO FORTH...god knows i am all too thankfull to abuseively involve myself in his finances.....i do not plan on confronting him about all this, or all this recent confusion with his money, the bills, his gambling, or this PATHOLOGICALL LYING. as it stands, he can't bear for me to even hint at any of it indirectly, lol, he probably feels very guilty, i would not dare to rub it in, &, i know god sees me wronged by these lies, & will take care of my reputation.......it will only make him estranged from me too, lol...right now i am the only person he hasn't openly alienated with these COMPULSIVE BEHAVIOR DISORDER(S)....& i would rather do without, die, & go on home to the lord, rather than gain & or spend a dime of his money wrongfully. for this reason, i'm all too happy to pass the convienence for him, (& the chore for me) of manageging his bills on to the v.a. people, lol &, i will not become involved in dad's accountability by being involved in a(nother) confrontation, since it's pointless to have him angry with me too, especially since we know that he will not admit what he did with the money, & may/will only continue using me as one of his excuses...which he will not b able to do hereafter, lol..... btw, i checked the cable acct. & the 02/10/09 bill was paid on 03/04/09, & i have given dad the bill due for 3/10/09 to give to the v.a. people. i should recieve confirmation that the postal billing on all of his bills will resume shortly, & will keep u posted. thnx for the housekeeping/carpet clng. support, i haven't called her/them yet, i can only face so many "chores" per "chore facing" episodes, lol....when i can get the stamina, i'lll call her/them, & let u know in a timely manne, anywhooooo,
peace&loveforeverbabyatnowdotus, y.
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